10月13日
沮喪與拓展
他出去到他弟兄那裡，看他們的重擔。（出二11）
摩西看見自己的同胞受欺壓，深覺自己是他們的救星；於是按自己的義憤，伸手為他們伸冤。他為神的正義出手，神卻容許人把他趕逐到絕境裡去，要他在曠野牧羊四十年。時候滿足，神顯現告訴他去領百姓出來；摩西那時說：“我是什麼人，竟能去？”摩西起初就知道自己是拯救百姓的那一位，但卻先要經過神的訓練。他的觀點是沒有錯的，但在沒有學會與神聯合以前，他仍是未合用的工人。
我們看見神的異象，又清楚神的心意，於是著手去做；然後，是類似那四十年曠野的經歷，似乎神完全不理這回事了。正當我們完全絕望，神的呼召又重新臨到，我們就顫抖地說：“我是誰？”我們必須學習跨出第一大步－－“那自有永有的差遣你！”我們必須認識到憑個人的血氣為神工作，是狂妄的表現；我們個人的特質，必須與神相交才能熾熱起來（太三11）。我們往往著重個人對事物的看法，有異象就說：“這就是神要我做的。”但我們的步伐還未與神一致。若你正陷入失望的階段，等著吧，遼遠的拓展就在前頭。
祈禱◆主啊，為著昨晚的睡眠，我感謝你；為著你既不打盹，也不睡眠，不論日夜都保護我們，我稱頌你。
October
13 Individual Discouragement And Personal Enlargement
“Moses
went out unto his brethren, and looked on their burdens.” Exodus 2:11
Moses saw the
oppression of his people and felt certain that he was the one to deliver them,
and in the righteous indignation of his own spirit he started to right their
wrongs. After the first strike for God and for the right, God allowed Moses to
be driven into blank discouragement, He sent him into the desert to feed sheep
for forty years. At the end of that time, God appeared and told Moses to go and
bring forth His people, and Moses said – “Who am I, that I should go?” In the
beginning Moses realized that he was the man to deliver the people, but he had
to be trained and disciplined by God first. He was right in the individual
aspect, but he was not the man for the work until he had learned communion with
God.
We may have
the vision of God and a very clear understanding of what God wants, and we
start to do the thing, then comes something equivalent to the forty years in
the wilderness, as if God had ignored the whole thing, and when we are
thoroughly discouraged God comes back and revives the call, and we get the
quaver in and say – “Oh, who am I?” We have to learn the first great stride of
God – “I AM THAT I AM hath sent thee.” We have to learn that our individual
effort for God is an impertinence; our individuality is to be rendered
incandescent by a personal relationship to God (see Matthew 3:17). We fix on
the individual aspect of things; we have the vision – “This is what God wants
me to do;” but we have not got into God’s stride. If you are going through a
time of discouragement, there is a big personal enlargement ahead.
