11月24日 仰望的方向
看哪，僕人的眼睛怎樣望主人的手……我們的眼睛也照樣望耶和華我們的 神……（詩一二三2）
這節經文是對神完全信賴的描寫。僕人的眼如何注視主人，我們的眼也同樣仰望神，以致對他的容貌認識日增（賽五十三1）。我們一不仰望神，就產生屬靈的漏症。這漏症不是由於外在的煩惱，而是在於我們有這樣的幻想：“我想自己伸展得太用力了，用腳尖站立，努力像神，而不作一個謙卑平凡人。”要知道並沒有太過竭力這一回事。
例如：你因著為神站起來而面臨危機，但你有聖靈的印證，知道怎樣去作才對。可是隨著年日過去，你卻逐漸有這樣的結論——“看來，我不是過分自負嗎？我所作的不是太‘過火’嗎？”你那些講理智的朋友說：“別傻啦，你當時說起那個屬靈醒覺，我們就看出是一時的衝動，你受不起那種壓力的，神也不期望你這樣做。”你就會說：“這個，我想自己的期望也太過了。”聽來多謙卑，可是對神的信賴已盡失，開始信賴世界的見解。你不再仰賴神，不再抬頭注視他，這就是危機。惟有等到神突然把你停住，你才曉得自己是在倒退。所以，一發現有漏症，就該立即補救。要承認在你與神之間有了阻隔，並且要立刻去對付。
祈禱◆噢，主啊，我在舉止和行為上何等緩慢地表現神仁慈的恩典！你的美譽何時才為著你的榮耀臨到我身上？
November 24 Direction Of Aspiration
“Behold, as the eyes of
servants look unto the hand of their masters . . . so our eyes wait upon the
Lord our God.” Psalm 123:2
This verse is a description of entire
reliance upon God. Just as the eyes of the servant are riveted on his master,
so our eyes are up unto God and our knowledge of His countenance is gained (cf.
Isaiah 53:1. R.V). Spiritual leakage begins when we cease to lift up our eyes
unto Him. The leakage comes not so much through trouble on the outside as in
the imagination; when we begin to say – “I expect I have been stretching myself
a bit too much, standing on tiptoe and trying to look like God in stead of
being an ordinary humble person.” We have to realize that no effort can be too
high.
For instance, you came to a crisis when
you made a stand for God and had the witness of the Spirit that all was right,
but the weeks have gone by, and the years maybe, and you are slowly coming to
the conclusion – ‘Well, after all, was I not a bit too pretentious? Was I not
taking a stand a bit too high?’ Your rational friends come and say – Don’t be a
fool, we knew when you talked about this spiritual awakening, that it was a
passing impulse, you can’t keep up the strain, God does not expect you to. And
you say – Well, I suppose I was expecting too much. It sounds humble to say it,
but it means that reliance on God has gone and reliance on worldly opinion has
come in. The danger is lest no longer relying on God you ignore the lifting up
of your eyes to Him. Only when God brings you to a sudden halt, will you
realize how you have been losing out. Whenever there is a leakage, remedy it
immediately. Recognize that something has been coming between you and God, and
get it readjusted at once.
