11月3日 耶稣的奴隶
我已经与基督同钉十字架，现在活着的，不再是我，乃是基督在我里面活着。（加二20）
这句话的意思是我亲手折断自己的主权，完全降服于主耶稣至高的权威。没有人可以替我做，我必须自己去行。神可以在一年有三百六十五次叫我们面临作决定的时刻，可是他不能推我过去。我必须打破脱离神而独立的外壳，释放整个人格，与他合一；不再跟从自己的主意，完全效忠主耶稣。一旦如此，就无可争辩了。很少人真正知道什么叫效忠基督 – 就是“为我（主）的缘故。”有这个才有精忠的圣徒。
这破碎的关键到了没有？其他的事都不过是敬虔的伪壳。决定性的一点是 – 我肯不肯无条件投降，顺服基督？我必须打破实现自我的企图，这样，与主认同的超然事实就随即出现，圣灵的见证就明明可见 – “我已经与基督同钉十字架。”
我对基督教的热诚，就是特意把自己的主权舍弃，作耶稣基督的奴仆。若非如此，我尚未踏上成圣之路。
只要每年有一个学生被神呼召，就是以肯定这间神学院的存在价值。若只作为一间机构，这学院没有什么价值。它不是为学术研究，其最大的用意是让神可以随意得着人的生命。他可以随意使用我们吗？还是我们仍然让自我实现的念头占据？
祈祷◆主啊，因着我肉体的软弱，我与你的相交也显得枯燥乏味，然而我的心却是欣喜的，我的肉体亦将在盼望中安息。
November 3 A Bond-Slave Of Jesus
“I am crucified with Christ;
nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me.” Galatians 2:20
These words mean the breaking of my
independence with my own hand and surrendering to the supremacy of the Lord
Jesus. No one can do this for me, I must do it myself. God may bring me up to
the point three hundred and sixty-five times a year, but He cannot put me
through it. It means breaking the husk of my individual independence of God,
and the emancipating of my personality into oneness with Himself, not for my
own ideas, but for absolute loyalty to Jesus. There is no possibility of
dispute when once I am there. Very few of us know anything about loyalty to
Christ – “For My sake.” It is that which makes the iron saint.
Has that break come? All the rest is pious
fraud. The one point to decide is – Will I give up, will I surrender to Jesus
Christ, and make no conditions whatever as to how the break comes? I must be
broken from my self-realization, and immediately that point is reached, the
reality of the supernatural identification takes place at once, and the witness
of the Spirit of God is unmistakable – “I have been crucified with Christ.”
The passion of Christianity is that I
deliberately sign away my own rights and become a bond-slave of Jesus Christ.
Until I do that, I do not begin to be a saint.
One student a year who hears God’s call
would be sufficient for God to have called this College into existence. This
College as an organization is not worth anything, it is not academic; it is for
nothing else but for God to help Himself to lives. Is He going to help Himself
to us, or are we taken up with our conception of what we are going to be?
