4月29日 未有確據而安之若素之恩典
將來如何，還未顯明。（約壹三2）
我們本性喜歡一五一十地計算得清清楚楚，於是視未確定的事為壞事。我們總愛假設一個可達的目標；其實，屬靈生命的本質不是這樣的。屬靈生命的本質是在未確定的時候，便心裡堅定；因此，我們不必到處築巢，安身立命。理智會說：“唔，假如我在那情況之下……”但我們根本不能置身於自己尚未經歷過的情況。
安穩是屬世生活的表記，而在不穩定中靠主恩安詳，是屬靈生命的標誌。相信神，就意味著我們對生活各方面的事情不肯定，因為我們不曉得一天將會發生什麼事。這句話一般都是存著愁歎來說；其實，這應該是一句滿有希望的說話才對。我們雖不知下一步如何，但我們相信神。
那只要將自己一切交給神，並盡上本份，神就會使我們每時每刻充滿驚喜。可是，我們若只高舉一些教條，死就進來了；我們不是相信神，而是相信他的信念。耶穌說：“你們若不……變成小孩子的樣式……。”屬靈生命是赤子的生命。我們對神並非不肯定，乃是不肯定他下一步怎樣做。若我們只對信仰肯定，就是把自己抬高，變得嚴厲自尊，只對自己的見解下結論；但我們若與神有正常的關係，生命就充滿自然的、歡樂的期望，因為對未來的事並沒有把握。
耶穌說：“你們也當信我。”他不是說：“你們要信某些關於我的事。”完全交托他吧！雖然不知道他何時臨到，但他必然會臨到。持守對他的忠貞吧。
祈禱◆主啊，為著過去的那段時間，我敬拜你。你讓我看見那許多的人，榮耀地與你進入正常的關係！它是那麼奇妙，使我難有足夠的言詞去讚美你。
April
29 The Graciousness Of Uncertainty
“It
doth not yet appear what we shall be.” 1 John 3:2
Naturally, we are inclined to be so
mathematical and calculating that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. We
imagine that we have to reach some end, but that is not the nature of spiritual
life. The nature of spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty,
consequently we do not make our nests anywhere. Common sense says – “Well,
supposing I were in that condition . . .” We cannot suppose ourselves in any
condition we have never been in. Certainty is the mark of the common-sense
life: gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of
God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may
bring forth. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness, it should be rather
an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but
we are certain of God. Immediately we abandon to God, and do the duty that lies
nearest, He packs our life with surprises all the time. When we become
advocates of a creed, something dies; we do not believe God, we only believe
our belief about Him. Jesus said, “Except ye become as little children.”
Spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, but
uncertain of what He is going to do next. If we are only certain in our
beliefs, we get dignified and severe and have the ban of finality about our
views; but when we are rightly related to God, life is full of spontaneous,
joyful uncertainty and expectancy.
“Believe also in Me,” said
Jesus, not – “Believe certain things about Me.” Leave the whole thing
to Him, it is gloriously uncertain how He will come in, but He will come.
Remain loyal to Him.
