4月29日 未有确据而安之若素之恩典
将来如何，还未显明。（约壹三2）
我们本性喜欢一五一十地计算得清清楚楚，于是视未确定的事为坏事。我们总爱假设一个可达的目标；其实，属灵生命的本质不是这样的。属灵生命的本质是在未确定的时候，便心里坚定；因此，我们不必到处筑巢，安身立命。理智会说：“唔，假如我在那情况之下……”但我们根本不能置身于自己尚未经历过的情况。
安稳是属世生活的表记，而在不稳定中靠主恩安详，是属灵生命的标志。相信神，就意味着我们对生活各方面的事情不肯定，因为我们不晓得一天将会发生什么事。这句话一般都是存著愁叹来说；其实，这应该是一句满有希望的说话才对。我们虽不知下一步如何，但我们相信神。
那只要将自己一切交给神，并尽上本份，神就会使我们每时每刻充满惊喜。可是，我们若只高举一些教条，死就进来了；我们不是相信神，而是相信他的信念。耶稣说：“你们若不……变成小孩子的样式……。”属灵生命是赤子的生命。我们对神并非不肯定，乃是不肯定他下一步怎样做。若我们只对信仰肯定，就是把自己抬高，变得严厉自尊，只对自己的见解下结论；但我们若与神有正常的关系，生命就充满自然的、欢乐的期望，因为对未来的事并没有把握。
耶稣说：“你们也当信我。”他不是说：“你们要信某些关于我的事。”完全交托他吧！虽然不知道他何时临到，但他必然会临到。持守对他的忠贞吧。
祈祷◆主啊，为著过去的那段时间，我敬拜你。你让我看见那许多的人，荣耀地与你进入正常的关系！它是那么奇妙，使我难有足够的言词去赞美你。
April
29 The Graciousness Of Uncertainty
“It
doth not yet appear what we shall be.” 1 John 3:2
Naturally, we are inclined to be so
mathematical and calculating that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. We
imagine that we have to reach some end, but that is not the nature of spiritual
life. The nature of spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty,
consequently we do not make our nests anywhere. Common sense says – “Well,
supposing I were in that condition . . .” We cannot suppose ourselves in any
condition we have never been in. Certainty is the mark of the common-sense
life: gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of
God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may
bring forth. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness, it should be rather
an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but
we are certain of God. Immediately we abandon to God, and do the duty that lies
nearest, He packs our life with surprises all the time. When we become
advocates of a creed, something dies; we do not believe God, we only believe
our belief about Him. Jesus said, “Except ye become as little children.”
Spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, but
uncertain of what He is going to do next. If we are only certain in our
beliefs, we get dignified and severe and have the ban of finality about our
views; but when we are rightly related to God, life is full of spontaneous,
joyful uncertainty and expectancy.
“Believe also in Me,” said
Jesus, not – “Believe certain things about Me.” Leave the whole thing
to Him, it is gloriously uncertain how He will come in, but He will come.
Remain loyal to Him.
