5月24日 絕望中的興奮
我一看見，就僕倒在他腳前，像死了一樣。（啟一17）
也許你像約翰一樣，與主耶穌相知甚深。但當他突然以完全陌生的面貌出現，你只能僕倒他腳前像死去一樣。有時神不能以別的辦法顯示他自己，就只好以他的威嚴顯現。那異象中的威榮，叫你在絕望中心懷興奮。那時，你要再起來，就必須捉著神的手了。
“他用右手按著我說。”在驚恐中，有人觸摸你，你便曉得那是耶穌基督的右手。不是阻止、糾正或管教的右手，而是永在的父的右手。無論他的手什麼時候放在你身上，總有難以形容的平安與安慰，因為知道有永遠的膀臂在扶持，就得著供應、安慰與力量。神的撫摸一來，就再沒有什麼能叫你恐懼的了。主耶穌帶著天上的榮耀，對一個微不足道的門徒說：“不要懼怕。”他的仁慈是那樣的溫柔，我對他有這樣的認識嗎？
留心那些令人絕望的事物。有一種絕望是沒有喜樂、沒有展望、沒有曙光。可是只要我知道“在我裡頭，就是在我肉體之中，沒有良善”，那時絕望中的喜樂就來了。在神榮耀的彰顯之中，我必須謙恭俯伏。若要起來，神必親手攙扶。除非我到了一切的盡頭，否則神不能為我作什麼。
祈禱◆噢，主啊，在屬靈和各方面，願你加倍地保守這聖靈的殿。賜給我們你所喜悅的光輝和明亮。
May 24 The Delight Of Despair
“And when I saw Him, I fell at His feet as dead.”
Revelation 1:17
It may be that like the apostle John you know Jesus Christ intimately,
when suddenly He appears with no familiar characteristic at all, and the only
thing you can do is to fall at His feet as dead. There are times when God
cannot reveal Himself in any other way than in His majesty, and it is the
awfulness of the vision which brings you to the delight of despair; if you are
ever to be raised up, it must be by the hand of God.
“He laid His right hand upon me.” In the midst of the awfulness, a touch
comes, and you know it is the right hand of Jesus Christ. The right hand not of
restraint nor of correction nor of chastisement, but the right hand of the
Everlasting Father. Whenever His hand is laid upon you, it is ineffable peace
and comfort, the sense that “underneath are the everlasting arms,” full of
sustaining and comfort and strength. When once His touch comes, nothing at all
can cast you into fear again. In the midst of all His ascended glory the Lord
Jesus comes to speak to an insignificant disciple, and to say – “Fear not.” His
tenderness is ineffably sweet. Do I know Him like that?
Watch some of the things that strike despair. There is despair in which
there is no delight, no horizon, no hope of anything brighter; but the delight
of despair comes when I know that “in me （that is, in my flesh） dwelleth no good thing.” I delight to know
that there is that in me which must fall prostrate before God when He manifests
Himself, and if I am ever to be raised up it must be by the hand of God. God
can do nothing for me until I get to the limit of the possible.
